September 26, 2009

Sometimes you reach a point of no return. Meaning, yes I just spent an hour talking to the cute guy I have a crush on with lipstick all over my front teeth. Oh well, I can't be embarrassed now, nope, not after I worked up the courage to even talk to him and now I can't act like a little lipstick is going to bring me down.

Or sometimes you reach a point where there is no more moving forwards, or climbing up and over, or around (you get my point). No you have reached a dead end, kinda like in a maze where you are sure that that one path is going to take you somewhere, but it doesn't. So what do you do? You back up. Yes you reverse. You go back to the beginning if needed to figure it out. But for some reason this makes people look at you funny. Why? Maybe because they could get through the whole maze without having to start over or take another path. Because they are so certain that the one way they did it was the right way!

I will have to make a very hard choice in the coming days. Which is kinda ironic that it's so hard, because the answer is so clear. Do you ever have those? Yes, it leads to more work or possibly a harder road to take, but the answer is still the best one. I know you want me to just spill it, but I can't, not until I have fully committed to this choice. Which means I owe it a little more thought and processing.

But I just needed to say that going backwards or starting over never makes you less of a person, if anything it makes you a person who is brave. And hopefully those from the outside looking in will see that.

Hope your weekend was better than mine.....the Hogs lost, again! :(


  1. You are SO brave Jonnie. You can do anything. Sorry we didn't talk tonight...we left my grandmother's house late and now you are asleep. Call me tomorrow ASAP. :)

  2. Be tough sister! Sounds like you are working through it and going to follow your heart. That is the best you can do! Good luck with it all.

  3. I totally agree with everything you said! You can do it Jonnie! Do what you think is best for you, not anyone else! love you!


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